Jennifer
04-10-2002, 01:52 AM
...it really just pertains to the chewers who know me- that would be you guys.
I know I'm a complete nutter and half the stuff I say that you actually listen to makes less than no sense, and I can deal with that. BUT. I am tired of being told how mean and horrible I am. It's true I could try to be more tolerant- and I do try a little every day, I really do- but I'm not the total bitch I'm made out to be. I've been hearing it so often I'm starting to believe it myself. That's doing wonders for my self-esteem. Really.
I'm tired of being ignored. Oh, sure, if I raise my voice and repeat myself enough I'll be heard, but by then the conversation has changed gears and my comment, which was perfectly relevant the moment before- when I first said it, then makes no sense in regard to the topic at hand. I look stupid; everyone smiles and nods and goes back to their little conversation. The one I'm not a part of. And people wonder why I'm so quiet.
My last point is one that hasn't yet become a problem, but could, possibly, in the near future. Don't make fun of me too much, please. I can dish it, and I can certainly take it, but only in small doses!
I feel better already just having typed all this, and I'm not about to chicken out and delete it. I took the time to type that much, I'm going to post it, dosh garnit!
I know I'm a complete nutter and half the stuff I say that you actually listen to makes less than no sense, and I can deal with that. BUT. I am tired of being told how mean and horrible I am. It's true I could try to be more tolerant- and I do try a little every day, I really do- but I'm not the total bitch I'm made out to be. I've been hearing it so often I'm starting to believe it myself. That's doing wonders for my self-esteem. Really.
I'm tired of being ignored. Oh, sure, if I raise my voice and repeat myself enough I'll be heard, but by then the conversation has changed gears and my comment, which was perfectly relevant the moment before- when I first said it, then makes no sense in regard to the topic at hand. I look stupid; everyone smiles and nods and goes back to their little conversation. The one I'm not a part of. And people wonder why I'm so quiet.
My last point is one that hasn't yet become a problem, but could, possibly, in the near future. Don't make fun of me too much, please. I can dish it, and I can certainly take it, but only in small doses!
I feel better already just having typed all this, and I'm not about to chicken out and delete it. I took the time to type that much, I'm going to post it, dosh garnit!